so I write myself a lot of memos

and sometimes I feel like Im davinci writing in his notebooks full of ideas for inventions that future generations will look at and say I was way ahead of my time, and sometimes I feel like Ted Kaczynski rambling away musings about the abusive higher powers and how they have wronged me and how I can manage to eek out a life on this blue sphere.

only time will tell. when we die we leave behind nothing but other people's judgements on our memory. but whatever at that point youre gone ... so ... whatever ... not to say Im going crazy or anything, but just ... meh